Freak Nasty In The City

I Shook My Head. "No, We Used Protection That Night And-" Trey Then Cut Me Off "So Its Not His?" I Shook My Head Again "No Trey Listen, It Is His Baby But I Forced Myself To Get Pregnant By Him." He Looked Confused. "How?" "I Don't Want To Describe It, This Is Not The Place For That." "Ok." He Took A Sip Of His Nuvo & We Walked Out Of The Bar. We Got Into His Car & Drove To His House Outside The City. "So, Tell Me What Really Happened?" "Well, I Was In LA The Day I Found Out Chris Was Cheating On Me. We Had A Big Fight Outside Of A Restaurant & The Little Bitch Must've Been Weak Because She Left. Then I Went Back To His Hotel Room & We Had Sex, But He Used Protection." I Sighed Heavy For The Next Part. "It's Okay Catalina, You Can Tell Me." He Reassured Me & I Continued. "After He Left, I Got Angry That He Played Me Again So I Went To His Restroom To Freshen Up & Go Look For Him & then I Saw The Condom In The Wastebasket So I..." "You What?" "I Took A Turkey Baster From My Bag & Got Myself Pregnant With It." I Was Waiting For Trey To Be Completely Disgusted By Me But All I Saw On His Face Was A Blank Stare.

"Trey? Are You Ok?" He Looked At Me. "Yeah I'm Fine, But What Was On Your Mind When You Did This Cat? Did You Think That You Getting Pregnant Would Make Chris Love You Again? Did You Think He Was Gonna Leave Terrence To Be With You?" I Started To Cry. "Yes, Yes I Did, But Now I Made A Terrible Mistake That I Wish I Could Take Back But I Can't." "Look, There Are Other Options Out There So You Can Fix This." "What? Abortion?" I Looked At Trey. "Possibly Or Even Giving Up The Baby For Adoption." He Rubbed My Back. "I'll Be Here If You Need Anything." Trey Started To Get Up To Leave & I Grabbed His Wrist. "Wait." He Turned Around "Yea?" He Asked. "If I Go Get An Abortion, Would You Come With Me?" "Of Course I Would." I Sighed A Little Bit. "Okay Then, Tomorrow I'm Going To Get An Abortion & Leave Chris Alone Forever. If He Wants To Be With Terrence She Can Have Him. I'm Done Going After Someone Who Doesn't Love Me." "Okay Then I'll Come Back Here Tomorrow Afternoon To Pick You Up." I Still Didn't Let Go Of His Wrist. "Um, Trey?" He Looked Back At Me.

"What?" He Replied. "If I Go Through With This & If You Truly Love Me, You Would Break Up With Your Girlfriend & Be With Me." He Seemed Hesitant At First But He Quickly Answered Me. "Yes, Yes I Will Leave Julissa For You." I Smiled & Gently Released His Wrist. "I Hope You Meant That Trey Before I Knew It He Closed His Bedroom Door. I Just Sat There Wondering If He Truly Meant What He Said. Cause Chris Said That He Would Always Love Me, But That Was After Sex. I Never Had Any Luck With Men. I Don't Know How This Could Be Different. I Sat Back Thinking About How I Got To This Point In My Life. I Had A Good Life, But Somewhere Down The Road I Had Lost My Way & Felt That Money Was The Only Way To Live No Matter What. I Don't Want To Abort Chris' Child Without Him Knowing About It, But He Decided To Leave Me For Another Woman Without Me Knowing About It So Fuck Him. Trey Came Back Through The Door. "What Happened?" "Um Don't Be Alarmed Cat, But Julissa Is Coming Here Now. So You Need To Hide Somewhere Before She Sees You." I Was Trying To Look For A Place To Hide Till I Remembered What Trey Promised Me.

"Wait A Minute, Hold Up Trey. This Is The Perfect Time To Tell Her You're Dumping Her." "No It Is Not Cat." "Why The Fuck Not?" "Because I-" The Door Closing Cut Him Off. "Trey Babe, Are You Home?" Trey Started To Whisper "Look Cat, I Gotta Do This When I'm Ready To & I Can't Just Show Up With You & Say I'm Leaving Her Just Like That." "Really? Are You Fucking Serious Right Now?" "Cat I Will Tell Her, Just Not Right Now." He Grabbed My Arm & Led Me Into The Closet & He Forgot To Lock The Door As Julissa Walked In The Bedroom. "There You Are, How Are You Sweetie?" She Said While I Saw Her Kissing Trey In The Crack Of The Closet Door. "I'm Fine Babe." He said Scratching His Neck. I Couldn't Believe This Shit, Is Really Going To Stay With Her? I Thought He Wanted To Be With Me. I Just Said Fuck It & Popped The Fuck Out. "This Is Bullshit!!!" I Bellowed. His Girlfriend Gave Me An Evil Look Then She Glared At Trey. "Trey, Who A FUCK Is This?" She Pointed At Me. "When Are You Gonna Tell Her Huh?" Trey Scratched The Back Of His Neck Out Of Nervousness. "Tell Me Exactly What? And What The Hell Are You Doing In Our House?" "Well I-I-I..." "Speak Up Trey!" Julissa Fired At Him.

Before Trey Could Speak Julissa Cut Him Off. "You Know What? Fuck It, I'll Get Back To Your Ass." She Faced Me With Vigor. "Who The Hell Are You & What Are You Doing In My House?!" Julissa Fired At Me. "I Can't Believe You Weren't Going To Tell Her Trey." I Looked At Him. "Tell Me What?" She Looked Back At Trey. "He Was Going To Leave You For Me." I Told Her In A Straight Face. She Looked At Me & Chuckled. "What Made You Think That Shit?" She Replied With Her Hands On Her Hips. "He Told Me." She Broke Her Serious Face & Started To Laugh Out Loud. "What's So Funny?" I Grew Angrier By Her Laugh. She Wiped The Tear From Her Eye. "I'm Laughing Because You're Such A Dumbass, Did You Actually Believed That He Loved You? And That He Would Actually Leave Me, He Girlfriend For Almost A Year For You A Pregnant Slut?!" I Became Even More Angry. "Oh Yea, I Remember You. You Were That Bitch That Tried To Break Ter & Chris Up. Cause You Couldn't Break Them Up & Your Baby Is Probably Not Chris' Anyways So You-" She Cut Herself Off Then Turned To Trey. "Did You Get That Bitch Pregnant?" Trey Shook His Head Violently. "No, I Never Even Slept With Her." I Became Shocked At How Trey Denied Sleeping With Me. "Yes You Did Trey, Why Are You Lying?" "So He Got You Pregnant Huh?" "No, But He Did Sleep With Me." Trey Tried To Sneak Away But His Girlfriend Got Him. "Where The Fuck Are You Going Tremaine? We're Gonna Talk About This!" She Pushed Him Down &Started Cursing Him Out. I Ran Out The House & Took A Taxi Cab Home, Caught My Breath & Went To Sleep At Home.














The Next Day I Was In My Room Thinking About What Julissa Said & She Was Right, What Was I Thinking To Believe That Trey Was Really Gonna Leave Her For Me. I Just Getting Myself Into Deeper & Deeper Shit. I Was Tired Of Holding On To The Only That That's Keeping Chris In My Life When He Don't Want Me In His Life, If He Wants To Live His Life With Terrence & Their Child That's Fine, It's Something I'll Have To Live With. But I Don't Want To Give Life To A Child That Won't Be Loved By Someone Who Help Create It. So I Packed My Things & I Left My Apartment To Get An Abortion, Chris Has Convinced Me That He Doesn't Want Me Or This Child In His Life. So I Hopped The Rental Car & Drove To A Woman's Clinic Nearby, I Took A Deep Breath & Entered The Building. I Filled Out The Sheet & Sat In The Waiting Room, Every Minute Felt Like An Hour As I Breathed Heavily As If A Cement Block Was Fastened To My Chest. A Nurse Came Out & Called My Name "Catalina Rosas?" I Got Up & Headed Towards Her. "The Doctor Will See You Now." I Walked Towards The Back Of The Clinic & I Walked Slowly, It Seemed Like Everything Was Is Slow Motion & I Felt Heaviness With Each Step. I Entered The Exam Room, "The Doctor Will Be With You Shortly." "Ok" I Responded.

I Sat Quietly In The Monotone Colored Room, Just Waiting To Get This Over With. My Cellphone Rang & I Forgot I Had It On Me. I Picked It Up & It Was My Sister, I Rolled My Eyes & I Answered It. "What Is It Jaslene?" I Huffed. "Hey Miss Thing, Don't Answer Me Like That, I Was Just Checking On My Baby Sister. So What's Up?" "Nothing, I'm At The Hospital." "Wait, Did Anything Happen To You Or The Baby?" She Responded With Concern. "No, No The Baby Is Fine I Just Getting A Checkup." Lying My Ass Off To Her. "Oh Ok Then. And Catty?" "Yea?" I Replied "Just So You Know, I Wish You & The Baby Luck. If You Need Someone To Take Care Of It I Will, You Don't Need To Depend On A Man To Love This Child. I Will Help You If You Need It, Ok Sis?" I Felt A Tear Come Out Of My Eye & I Wiped It Off. "Hello? Cat Are You There?" I Caught My Breath. "Y-Yea, I Am. Thank You Jassie, I Have To Go the Doctor's About To Come In. "Okay, Call Me If Anything. Goodbye." "Goodbye." I Hung Up My Phone.

I Started To Cry Because I Was So Focused On Finding Someone To Love Me That I Forgot That My Unborn Child Needed Love Too... I've Been Too Selfish & Inconsiderate Of The Choices That I've Made That I Am Practically Ruining An Innocent Person's Life. I'm Still Debating Whether Or Not I Should Go Through With This. The Doctor Came Into The Room Before I Could Make A Final Decision. "Hello Ms. Rosas, My Name Is Dr. Mathis & Believe You Wanted To Terminate Your Pregnancy Is That Correct?" I Took A Deep Breath & Looked Up. "Yes, Yes I Am." She Got Up From Her Seat "Well Okay Then, I'm Going To Need You To Undress & Put On Our Robe For Me & I Will Come Back In 10 Minutes." She Exited The Room. I Got Undressed & Put On The Robe. I Was Sitting On The Mat Thinking To Myself What Would Happen After This Is Over... My Relationship With Chris Is Shot To Shit, Trey Probably Never Wanted Me In The First Place, My Sis Would Probably Hate Me For Aborting This Child, But It Is My Decision What I Want To Do With The Baby. Especially Since Chris Wanted To Start His Life With Another Girl & Completely Ignore Me & Our Child. I Just Wanna Get This Thing Over With, Go Home & Go To Sleep. The Doctor Came Back In The Room. "Okay, Are You Ready?" "Yes." I Replied "Just Lay On Your Back It'll Be Over Before You Know It. I Layed On My Back & I Spaced Out Then I Faded Away. "Miss Rosas? Ms. Rosas? Ms. Rosas?" I Woke Up. "Ms. Rosas, I'm Sorry To Awake You But The Procedure Is Done. Your Pregnancy Has Been Terminated."

I Lifted Myself Up From The Mat. "Are You Ok?" I Shook My Head In Mild Confusion. "Yea, Yes I Am, Just A Little Lightheaded. "That's Common You'll Be Fine, Just Take It Easy For A Couple Of Days Ok?" "Alright." "When You're Done The Nurse Will Show You Out." "Thank You." It Was Over, Just Like That. I Was Done With Carrying The Child Of A Man Who Wants Nothing To Do With Me. I'm Ready To Fully Move On With My Life, Now All I Need To Do Is Call Chris & Let Him Know That He No Longer Has To Deal With Me Or This Baby. I Got Dressed & Left The Clinic Trying To Call Chris & He Didn't Pick Up His Phone. So I Kept Calling Him & Calling Him & He Didn't Pick Up So I Got In The Car & Drove On The Highway & Tried Calling Him Again & He Finally Answered "What The Fuck Do You Want Catalina?! He Replied "Chris I Want To Tell You Something." I Answered. "Well Hurry Up Cause Terrence Is In Labor & I'm About To Go." "She Is?" "Yes She Is! I Don't Even Know Why The Fuck You Still Have My Number Anyways." "Look Chris, Just Listen To Me For A Sec-" "I Gotta Go I Don't Have Time For Your Bullshit." He Hung Up.

I Kept Speeding Down The Highway & Calling Chris Back, He Picked Up & I Raised My Voice At Him. "Listen To Me Now, Ok? I Have To Tell You This Now. I Just Had A-" Chris Cut Me Off. "Man You Need To Stop Calling Me. I Don't Care About You No More Just Fucking Face It." "This Has Nothing To Do With Me, It's About Our Bab-" He Hung Up Again. I Got So Upset That I Started Crying, Then I Called My Sister Jaslene At Her Hospital In VA. "Catty, What's Wrong Why Are You Crying?" "I Called Chris Today-" "Oh My Goodness Catty Why?!" "I Had To Tell Him Something Important & He Wouldn't Listen To Me, He Treats Me Like Shit & I Can't Take It Anymore." I Cried. "Slow Down Cat, Slow Down. What's His Name?" "Chris Brown, The Singer?" "Shit Cat, I Told You About These Young Rich Men-" I Cut Her Off. "I Know, I Know Jas. I Don't Need A Lecture Now, I Need You To Tell Him Something For Me. He's In VA Now Heading Your Way." "Ok Catty, What Is It?" "I Need You To Tell Him That I Had-" I Heard A Beeping Noise & I Was My Cellphone Cutting Us Off & Dying. "SHIT!" I Yelled. Then A Road Bump Made My Phone Drop Out Of My Hand & Looked For It In The Car, I Didn't See The Large 18-Wheeler Heading Towards Me I Was Speeding Very Fast & When I Got My Phone & Looked Up It Was Too Late, Me & The Truck Collided & I Died. I Never Told Chris Nor Jaslene That Our Baby Is Dead, I Never Apologized To Terrence & Julissa, I Sort Of Regret Having The Abortion. I Wish I Could Take Back That Whole Day, I Would've Done So Much Different With Myself And Our Baby But It Is Too Late...