Freak Nasty In The City

Chapter 15 The Aftermath:


The News Hit Us Like A Ton Of Bricks, First Me & Chris' Child Dies, Now Catalina... I Couldn't Help But Feel That I Was In A Lot Of Shit Deeper Than I Can Handle. I Looked At Chris Sitting On My Bed & He Tried To Stay Strong But I Could See Him Breaking Down Little By Little. "Chris?" I Sat Up A Little In The Hospital Bed. "Yea." He Turned To Me. "What's Gonna Happen To Us Now?" I Looked Upon His Flushed Face. "What Do You Mean?" He Responded. "I Mean, Are We Going To Stay Together Or What? Cause I Don't Know What To Think Now." "I Think You Didn't Hear Me Back In LA Ter, I Love You." He Cupped My Face. "I'm Not Going To Leave You, Especially Not Now." He Got Off The Bed & Headed Towards The Door. "I'll Be Back, I Need To Talk To Jaslene Ok?" I Nod My Head. "Okay." He Walked Out Of The Room & I Sat Alone In Silence. Minutes Later I Heard Distant Arguing In the Hallway, I Slowly Got Up From My Bed & Crept Over Towards The Door Trying To Maintain My Balence Making As Few Sounds As Possible. In the Crack Of The Door All I Heard Was "How Could She Do That Shit?!" Then a Second Voice Replied "How Could You Not Believe It, It's Men Like You Who Feed These Girl's These Dreams & Then Starve Them After You Got What You Wanted." "That's Bulshit & You Know It." "Oh So You Didn't Tell Her that You Loved Her & Then Leave Her For Another Bitch?! You Make Me SICK!!!" "You Know What, I'm Done Dealing With You I Lost Two Children Today & I'm Not Putting Your Bullshit On Top Of All That Iight. So Go To Hell Bitch You're Just Mad Cause I Wanted Her Over You!!!" I Started To Walk Back To My Bed & Pretened To Fall Asleep, What Was Chris Talking About & Why Would He Talk To Jaslene Like That? He Came Back In The Room & Kissed Me On My Forehead But The Words He Said To Jaslese Made Me Very Uneasy & Concerned...



I Didn't Sleep The Whole Night, I Woke Up In The Morning Very Worried & Unsure What The Future Holds As Far As Me & Chris' Relationship Is Concerned. Chris Was Next To Me Stroking My Hair Away From My Face. "Good Morning Beautiful." He Smiled "Good Morning" I Slightly Smiled. I Sat Up A Little & Chris Held Me Up. "Take It Easy Sweetheart, You're Still Not Able To Do Too Much Yet." He Said With Concern. I Didn't Dare Question Him About What I Heard Last Night Even Though I Wanted Answers It Was One Of Those Things I Should Shut My Mouth For, Even If It Did Burn A Hole In The Back Of My Mind. I Layed Back In My Pillow & Chris Kissed Me Softly On My Forehead Then Walked Out Of The Room. "Where Ya Going Bae?" I Asked. "Just Taking A Walk Around, I Won't Be Long." He Stepped Out & I Rested For A Short While Till Chris' Mother & Aunt Stepped In The Room Very Calmly.







"Hi Terrence, Are You Alright?" His Mother Softly Spoke. "I'm Still Upset, But I'm Better If That's What You Mean." I Responded "I'm So Sorry For Your Loss Sweetheart, I Can't Help Feeling That It's Partially My Fault." His Aunt Charlene Said Tearing Up. "No." I Grunted. "It Was Not Your Fault, The Baby Had A Vitamin K Deficiency. Nothing Anyone Could've Done To Prevent This, This Is Tragic But We Will All Pull Through Alright. That's Why Family Is So Important." Charline Came To My Bedside & Gave Me A Hug. "You Are A Very Strong Young Woman." She Hugged My Tightly Then Jocelyn Soon Thereafter Hugged Me As Well. I Began To Cry, The Last Time I Felt So Loved Was When I Was With My Mother. I Miss My Mother So Much, She Would Hold Me Close If She Was Here. "Before I Lost My Mother" I Said Sniffling & Wiping My Tears Off My Face. "She Would Always Say That Family Is The Most Important Thing In Your Life, It Doesn't Matter Where You Go Or How Well Off You Become As Long As Long As You Have Your Family You're Better Off Than Any Wealthy Person In This World..." "Your Mother Was A Great Woman." Jocelyn Replied "She Was & I Love Her." I Responded "How Did She Pass Away?" Charlene Asked.








"Well, She Used To Work For A Law Firm & She Stayed There Late One Night At The Office And..." I Paused. "Then What Sweetheart?" Jocelyn Tried To Reassure Me. "There Was A Prison Escapee Who Broke In, He Started Shooting Up The Office. He Killed Her Boss, Two Secretaries & Injured 3 Clients. My Mom Hid Under Her Desk Praying That She Wouldn't Get Caught Or He Would Go Away, But He Found Her & By The Police Report He Grabbed Her Threw Her Against The Wall..." I Started To Cry Again. "He Saw Her Beg For Her Life & Tried To Calm Him Down So He Would Stop But He Pointed His Gun & Shot Her Over 5 Times." I Sobbed Uncontrollably. "It Was My Fault." I Still Sobbed. "No It Wasn't Ter." Jocelyn Tried To Comfort Me. "Yes It Is..." I Cried. "She Was Working Late To Help Pay For My Tuition Because I Lost My Scholarship, If I Wasn't So Stupid She Would Be Here." "It Was Not Your Fault Terrance, Your Mom Was Making Sure You Had A Good Education & Life So You Can Become A Great Woman. Your Mother's Death Was Not Foreseen By Anyone, She Did What Any Good Mother Would Do. There Was Nothing That Anyone Could've Done, All You Know Is That She Loved You & A Heartless   Person Took Her Life For An Unjustifiable Cause."










Christine's Face Turned Pale & She Tried To Avoid Eye Contact With Me. "What's Wrong Miss Charlene?" She Shook Her Head "Nothing, Nothing Dear. Excuse Me & My Sister For a Second." She Motioned Jocelyn To Exit The Room With Her & They Left. Why Was She So Shocked About How My Mom Died & Why Did They Leave As We Were Bonding? I Was Completely Clueless, But I Was Tired & I Needed Some Sleep. When I Woke Up A Few Hours Later I Saw Chris Sleeping In The Chair Adjacent From Me, It Was So Sweet How He Was Right By My Side Even Though I Have No Real Obligation To Him Anymore Now That Our Child Has Died. Besides, He Looks So Cute While He's Sleeping. I Saw That He Was About To Awake, But I Still Kept Staring At Him. He Woke Up & Smiled At Me. "Did You Sleep Well Sweetheart?" He Yawned. "Yea, I Feel Better Too. I'm Getting Discharged Today So I Guess I'll Get My Stuff Together & Head Back To NY." "Have You Told Your Father The News Yet?" He Asked. "No, I Haven't Had A Chance To Sadly." I Frowned. "I Want Us To Meet Him, Together." Chris Lifted His Head Up. "You Want Me To See Your Father." He Looked At Me Confused. "Of Course, Why Not?" I Looked At Him. He Scratched His Head. "I Don't Know Ter, I'm Pretty Sure Your Dad Doesn't Want To Meet The Man Who Knocked His Daughter Up Without Marring Her First." I Laughed. "He's Not Going To Meet That Man..."











I Got Up & Sat On His Lap. "He'll Meet The Man I Fell In Love With, My Father's Not A Bad Guy Just Overprotective." I Rubbed His Head. "He'll Warm Up To You I Promise." We Kissed Each Other Then I Got Up & Started To Get My Things Together. Chris Got Up Hugged Me From Behind & Kissed On My Neck. "Chris, We Can't Have Sex For 6 Months I Gotta Recover From The Birth." "Yea I Know, But You're So Beautiful & You're Too Good For Me." He Sighed. "Sometimes I Think That You're Too Good For Me." I Turned Around & Faced Him. "You Are Good Enough For Me Chris, I Love You." He Lowered His Head To The Point Our Foreheads Were Touching. "I Feel As If I Should Be Doing More For You Though." I Looked Into His Gorgeous Deep Brown Eyes. "You Do The Best You Can & Do Right By Me & You'll Remind Me Why I Love You So Much." I Kissed Him Again. "What About The Baby?" He Asked. I Sighed  & Faced Him. "We'll Have A Small Burial, Just Our Family & Good Friends. I Just Want To Lay Her To Rest That's All." "Do You Think That She Died Because We Weren't Ready To Be Parents Yet?" He Looked Up At Me, I Felt A Tear About To Come Out Of My Eye. "Umm... Let's Just Get Our Things Together Okay?" I Said With My Voice Slightly Breaking. I Started Silently Crying So He Wouldn't Hear Me, He Stepped Out Of The Hospital Room Cause His Mother Called Him. When He Left I Completely Broke Down Crying On The Bed. Chris' Sister Lindsey Came Into The Room Seeing Me Crying & Tries To Comfort Me.












"Terrence Why Are You Crying Sweetheart?" She Rubbed My Back. "I Just Feel Like I Let Chris Down With Our Daughter Dying." "Oh My Gosh, Terrence Listen To Me It Is NOT Your Fault." I Faced Her. "Chris Obviously Loves You If He Brought You All The Way Here To Meet Us, Because Usually We Never Know Who Chris Is Dating Unless It's In The Tabloids." She Playfully Joked. I Felt A Little Better After What She Said. "Chris Is An Enigma, He Never Really Shows How He Feels." She Continued. "He May Be Hurting But He Doesn't Want To Hurt You In The Process, He Wants To Make You Happy. Y'know He Didn't Sleep At All Last Night." I Looked At Her Confused. "He Didn't?" I Questioned "Not A Wink, He Kept Checking Up On You Like Clockwork To See If You Were Ok." "He Loves You, Probably More Than His Last Girlfriend..." She Stopped Herself From Continuing. "What?" I Stared At Her. She Didn't Reply. "Lindsey, What Happened With His Last Girlfriend?" Lindsey Licked Her Lips In Nervousness. "Tell Me." I Stared Into Her Eyes. She Took A Deep Breath. "Ok But You Have To Promise Me You Won't Say ANYTHING To Chris Or I'm Screwed... Ok?" I Nodded In Agreement. "Alright, Chris Was Dating This Girl & He Treated Her Like A Princess. I Mean He Would Buy Her Anything & Everything, Even Took Her On Tour With Him & Everything. She Knew That He Was Weak For Her So She Took Advantage Of That, She Would Let Him Pickup the Tab Even Though She Had A Well Paying Job."













She Continued "She Would Argue With Him on The Daily Basis If He Wasn't With Her, It Got To The Point She Broke Dishes In Our House... She Would Go Everywhere With Him, I  Wouldn't Be Shocked If She Went To The Bathroom With Him. Eventually Word Got Back To Him That She Was Cheating On Him With One Of His Music Friends, He Was Very Upset & He Confronted Her On It & She Slapped Him & Accused Him Of Cheating On Her. Afterwards She Kept Putting Her Hands On Him Till One Day He Retaliated." I Was Shocked But I Kept A Still Face. "He Was So Sad Afterwards, He Kept Blaming Himself For What Happened. She Didn't Deserve My Brother She Used & Abused Him But Then Again People Don't Want The Truth, They Want The Believe Whatever Makes Sense To Them..."Since He's Falling In Love Again I'm Only Gonna Tell You This Ter, Take Care Of Him & Love Him Sincerely Don't Break His Heart Like She Did. Because I'm Positive That He Won't Ever Want To Break Yours." She Gave Me A Hug & Left The Room. I Wiped The Tear From My Eye & Continued To Pack My Things & Get Dressed. Chris Walked Back In The Room. "Ready To Go?" I Turned Towards Him & Smiled "I Sure Am Baby." I Walked Over To Him & Pecked Him On The Lips. I Stepped Out Into The Hallway & I Saw Jocelyn & Charlene But Their Eye Contact Was Minimal.











I Looked At Them Puzzled, I Was About To Ask Them What's Wrong But Chris Hugged Me From Behind & Kissed Me On The Neck. "Baby... I Love You Too." I Giggled. "I'm Glad To See You Happy Again, I Love To See You Smile." He Said While Continuing To Kiss Me. We Ended Up Awkwardly Walking Out Of The Hospital Then My Cellphone Began To Ring. "Hold On Baby I Gotta Get My Phone." I Giggled. I Answered My Cellphone. "Hello?" "Terrence Robinson?" "Yes, This Is She." I Replied. "This Is The Sheriff Of Virgina State, How Are You?" My Face Twisted Up & I Became Confused. "I-I'm Fine, What's The Nature Of This Call?" "Well Ma'am I Was With The Coroner This Morning & We Found Something Quite Unusual With Your New Born Daughter's Death." "What Was That Sir?" I Inquired "It Seems As The Body That Was Sent For Us To Examine Does Not Match The Hospital's Autopsy Report At All..." "What Do You Mean By That, I'm Confused." "What I'm Saying Is That There's A Possibility That Your Daughter Was Kidnapped & Is Still Alive." My Eyes Grew Wide In Shock & Horror. Chris Saw My Face & Mouthed To Me What Happened? "I-I-I'm Coming To The Station With My Boyfriend Right Now, Thank You." I Hung Up The Phone.












"What Happened Ter?" Chris Spoke With Concern. "Our Baby Is Not Dead..." I Whispered. "What?!" He Said With A Confused Face. "Someone Kidnapped Our Baby!!!" I Belted Out Crying. Chris Quickly Became Upset "Wait, How Do You Know?" "The Sheriff Just Called Me & Told Me The Autopsy & The Baby's Body Didn't Match In The Morgue, So There's A Possibility That Our Baby Is Kidnapped By Someone." "But Who Would Want To Take Our Baby?! For What Reason?!" I Was Mentally Scrambled & Besides Myself Then My Eyes Widened & My Jaw Dropped. "Where's That Jaslene Bitch?" I Said Angrily. "I Don't Know, I Haven't Spoken To Her Since The Baby Was Born." Chris Responded. I Ran Back Into The Hospital & To The Front Desk. "Where Is Jaslene, Jaslene Rosas?!?!" I Franticly Asked. "I'm Sorry Ma'am But It's Her Vacation Time & She Won't Be Back For Another Week..." She Answered. I Ran Back Outside Nearly Collapsing But Chris Caught Me. "Oh My God, She Took Our Baby!" I Said Bawling "Who Did?!" Chris Said Trying To Contain Me. "Jaslene!" I Cried Out. "How Do You Know?" He Looked Into My Eyes. "We Have To Go To The Sheriff's Department, They Could Find Where Our Baby Is."Okay, Let's Get In The Car."












We Started To Drive Off & Chris' Phone Rang & Before I Answered It Chris Said "If It's Any Of The Family, Tell Them We're Going For A Drive No Need To Make Everyone Else Panic." I Nodded & Picked Up The Phone. "H-Hello?" "Oh Hi Terrence Sweetie It's Me Lindsey." "Oh Hi Lindsey, How Are You?" "I'm Fine Hun, Where Are You & Chris We All Need To Plan The Funeral & The Burial." "Me & Chris Are Taking A Little Drive Now." I Side Eyed Chris A Little. "We'll Be Back Much Later, So Don't Wait Up Too Long For Us." "O-Okay Ter, You Guys Drive Safe." "Okay, We Will Lin Bye-Bye." "Bye." I Hung Up The Phone & Slumped Back In My Seat. "What's Wrong?" Chris Asked. "Nothing, I Just-" "You Just What?" He Mimicked. "I Just Don't Think That It Was Right To Lie To Them Like That. We Should've Told Them That Someone Took Our Baby, They Would've Helped Us-" "No." Chris Cut Me Off. "Why Not Chris?" I Sat Up From My Seat "When We Show Us With Our Baby Girl In our Arms What The Hell Are We Gonna Tell Them? That We Found It Outside? Get Real Chris." "And What If The Sick Motherfucker Who Took Our Baby Actually Kills Her? What Will We Say Then? I Don't Want Unnecessary Drama & Heartache In My Family. Until We Know For Sure & Find Her, We Can't Tell Anyone About This Got It? I Nodded My Head In Agreement, But I Felt That It Was Better To Let Them Know. Whatever Plan Chris Has, I Hope It's Worth All Of This.

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